Diabetes sucks and I've had enough

[Guest]

Not looking for advice, just needed somewhere to vent where people understand.

I've been awake all night fighting lows, I've ate/drank so much to keep it up. I've had a low for the last hour now and it's finally come up to 3.5 mmol from 1.6 mmol (yes I was still awake and alert) I've lowered my basal and background insulins and nothing seems to be helping, I'm at my lowest point right now.

It just seems like whatever I do, it goes wrong. My BG was perfect all day then just before I was going to bed it went low (11pm) and I've been fighting to keep it up since. Diabetes sucks and I've had enough.

I'm exhausted. I want to curl up into a ball and cry. Ten years of this disease and I still can't get it right, what is wrong with me?

[Kate]

Sending you a hug. I have days like this too, I'm sure we all do. Sometimes this is why I don't worry too much about staying in range all day. It only goes up the wall the next day!

[Ebony]

I think the most frustrating thing about diabetes it’s the unpredictability. I can have a very similar day and one day can be filled with hypos, one is perfect and one is off the scale. I think I’m triggered worse when I have nonstop hypos and I feel helpless so I can absolutely emphasise how you feel, as we all can.

Lack of sleep makes you feel worse too. If this happens to me then I try help myself the next night by running higher so I can catch up on sleep, feel better in myself and keep on going! Hope you feel better!

[Catherine]

Keep your head up, we all have our bad days what ever we try to do, I have had type 1 for nearly 43 yrs and it is a trial but you get get over these days and carry on once feeling better from the Hypo’s and have a good cry and start again. We are all with you, take care.

[Kate]

Vent away - someone is always on here. I sympathise with you but can't offer any advice. Lucozade works for me and I don't feel awful until it goes below 2 which apparently is dangerous, and always at night! Hang in there!

[Donna]

I've been type one 40 years and get nights and days like this. It's not your fault. I was like this two nights ago, I'd worked a 12 hour shift that day and was working 12 hours the following day. I gave in in the end and took my glucogon injection and then went sky high. Some times you just can't win.

[Chloe]

I’m sorry you are having a rough time, but nothing is wrong with you! I’ve had this 21 years now and still have these days. It’s not an exact science and you can do the same things every day with different results. It’s not your fault. Sending big hugs your way!

[Elena]

This is it with diabetes, it can change daily or every few weeks or months... I'm a mum to type 1, guilt was always there but not anymore. I'm done with guilt even if we make mistakes... We are only human. I feel for you though, it is hard and relentless and a pain in the neck at times. Hope you have a better day and night and are able to recover.

[Carin]

You are definitely not alone. I’m going through the same thing at the moment. It’s my 10th year of this too and I often feel like my control is getting worse. I never used to have so many unexpected highs and lows. It’s absolutely draining and exhausting, rarely getting a good night sleep and then having to deal with the emotional rollercoaster as well. Feel free to contact me if you’d like to chat.

[Kristin]

Yup that’s been me the last two nights as well. It’s awful and I feel like a failure too. Couple that with trying to take care of a baby in the middle of the night and I’m exhausted. Trying to let my husband sleep but with lows and the little I’m struggling hard and don’t know what to do either.